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Change the voices in your head... (exercise update)
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Change the voices in your head... (exercise update) Made a wrong turn once or twice Dug my way out, blood and fire Bad decisions, that's alright Welcome to my silly life Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood Miss 'No way, it's all good' It didn't slow me down. Mistaken, always second guessing Underestimated, look I'm still around Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than fucking perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me You're so mean (so mean) when you talk (when you talk) About yourself. You were wrong. Change the voices (change the voices) in your head (in your head) Make them like you instead. So complicated, Look how we all make it. Filled with so much hatred Such a tired game It's enough, I've done all I could think of Chased down all my demons I've seen you do the same (Oh oh) Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than fucking perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer So cool in lying and we try, try, try but we try too hard And it's a waste of my time. Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)? - "Fuckin Perfect" - P!nk It's been a few weeks since I've updated about my exercising. Yes, I'm still at it. It's been 2 months and a week. Time is flying. I haven't weighed myself since May 9 so I don't know my weight and don't plan on buying a scale anytime soon. I don't need the<b> temptation. </font></b>I left off on May 14 no left for trip, 15 yes walking in tulsa, 16 yes in tulsa, 17 yes in tulsa, 18 yes in tulsa, 19 no coming home from trip, 20 no coming home from trip, 21 no, 22 no, 23 no, 24 yes 28 min (usually takes 33), 25 yes 40 min, 26 no, 27 yes 37 min (40 min route), 28 yes 38 min, 29 yes 30 min, 30 yes 42 min, 31 yes 50 min June 1 yes 53 min, 2 no, 3 yes 39 min, 4 no rain, 5 yes 1 hr 5 min, 6 yes 39 min I got a little lazy after I came home from my Oklahoma trip, but I knew I was gonna backslide and it could've been a lot worse. It was only a few days. I was very active in Oklahoma though. I probably walked more than I do at home. Not to mention dancing and moving my booty at the 2 concerts. I must say, referring to the song, even though I weigh more than I have all my life, even with the 7 pound loss a few weeks ago, I am less selfconscious. I won't go into details but I have always been shy sexually and I hate being naked. But lately the shyness and reluctance has receded a bit. It's still there but it's like it's dialed down. I guess that whole you have to love yourself first thing is kicking in finally. Getting older isn't a bad thing actually. I'm dreading turning 30 in a couple years but I don't feel my age. It seems like I've grown into myself more. Which is ironic since I feel like I'm in the wrong body. How I picture myself and how I look when I see myself in pics are two way different images. It's not necessarily a bad thing that I think I look smaller than what I am. It helps me to not be as selfconscious. It's not like I dress like a skinny girl, I wear body appropriate clothing. It's just funny how all of a sudden I had had enough. When I was younger I wanted to lose weight but never bothered or if I did it wasn't for long. I don't know what it was that gave me such determination finally. I just know I don't want to be a big older person cause the older I get the harder it will be to lose weight and my body won't bounce back as much. With 30 only a couple years away, it's like a deadline in a way. Try to lose a good chunk of weight before then. I had a friend I saw last night tell me he could tell I was losing weight. It'd been quite awhile since he saw me and I thought I'd have looked like I'd gained weight cause I hadn't started exercising and all the last time I saw him. It was good confirmation though that it's looking like I'm losing. Keeps me going. I sent an Angel to watch over you last night, it returned in a hurry. I asked why, it said "Angels can't watch porn." Thanks for fucking traumatizing my fucking Angel! Don't bother trying to figure me out. Not even the little voices in my head understand me. It's pointless! |
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When you hit the 50 mark 30 is sounding really good to me and 40 too.. I just see age as a number now and don't worry what it has for me.. hugs V Good post here.. Become a blog watcher sweet_vm
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