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Sensual Dreamscape
My thoughts, dreams, stories and just general day to day .
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Yours Truly Mailbox
Posted:Jan 22, 2022 11:38 pm
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2022 2:29 am

I hate not being able to respond and hear from you, so this is the place where you can message me and it will be private. Hope to hear from my friends.
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Hot Sex with the Fucking Machine
Posted:Feb 23, 2022 3:00 pm
Last Updated:Feb 25, 2022 1:36 am
I feel like I been so neglectful of my writing. I think about writing here, then I get tired enough that I don't. Or I decide masturbate instead. That is the truth. I get all horned up and decide that I need take care of that, and then well you see is not as much writing. Another thing I wish tell you is that I am a Switch. Which means sometimes I am Dom, other times I wish be the sub, but if I really really know you. Because me that is a scary place be if I am unsure. Other times is just mutual which is always fun too.

So last night I decided to get out my fucking machine and all the attatchments that go with it. I had bought this well over a year ago and used once. scared me, the power of . But last night I picked first a attachment dildo that was too thick for me. So I went down to a smaller size. I took my time, though I think I need to position it better. Controlling the pace was nice, and I was using a vibrator on my clit.

Wowser! What a nice feeling, I forgot how nice that can be. Now honestly this machine will last longer then most men can unless they are very . But if you are very , generally you might cum faste, then recover and go again. was nice start and stop . I would go at a slow place then increase a bbit. Then I would shut it off and rub my clit some more. Turning the machine back on, sending intense sparks all through my fungina, damn!........I was having some intense orgasms that I not had in quite some times. In that sweet zone were the waves of orgasms keep coming and I cant help but make noise.

So it was a , glad I now. I will be using again, but not everytime of course. I am not used intercourse per say anymore, so I am a bit sore. But a good kind of sore. Scratching that itch does something for your soul, don't you think.

So if you been wondering about getting a fucking machine, go ahead and get one. Takes the pressure of the man and the woman really enjoys . Of course if you are a man likes anal , this is great too. Just think, you the man could be getting head while she is being fuckind by the machine, or that you are. You can a threeway.

Feeling a bit aroused as I write this,

Yes that is my fungina

Triggering Effect
Posted:Feb 22, 2022 4:02 am
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2022 2:47 pm

Sitting here watching the sunrise, and yes you guessed it. Sleep and I are apparently no longer on speaking terms. Much on my mind, good and bad. Feeling hurt, a bit dismayed and even shocked. But then feeling very cared for too.

I never will understand why people at times feel the need to talk to down to other people. I am a very kind, loving woman. Yes I love sex, as much as anybody else. But It has to mean something to me. I need to feel a connection with you. When you feel that a person does not really wish to speak to you, we all know what that feels like. But being talked down to, is something I absolutely will not stand for.

Had a family member all the sudden text me the nastiest vile text. No sure why that happened, nor what caused it. I think the person was doing some heavy drinking. Again not something I will stand for, I have to surround myself with people who care, and will actually show it. This is why I keep to myself until I feel like there is a connection and that it is safe.

But on the positive side, my husband is doing superb in his recovery. Walking mainly with just a cane now. He really does not need any assistance from me. It is a beautiful transformation to see. Also a friendship that ended probably almost a year ago, is growing back fast. Probably even better than before, which does make me very happy.

My mental health, honestly I am struggling. I do get my feeling hurt, can't help that. lovers love how passionate I am in the bedroom, but seem to think I can shut all of that off. This is me, how I was made, we are all different. But just because someone requires a different approach and maybe some kinder words, does not mean they are not worth the effort. Depresion is a real burden, but I am handling. I just now what triggers me.

All in all, I am managing and I know things will get better.

How are you?

Narcissist Slithering
Posted:Feb 18, 2022 5:18 am
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2022 2:47 pm

Good Morning my dear friends,

I am sorry that I have not responded to comments lately. Please know that I have read them all, even in my private mailbox. All I can do is start replying from the comments on this day and forward.

I don't know why I cant sleep, it happens quite a bit for me as you know. I think right now I am feeling very happy, even though things are still so damn boring and routine everyday. But I have hope, faith, and even do I dare say desire. That I have a chance to have some happiness.

But what drove me to write this am is have you have met someone or read their profile and you can tell that they are really full of it. They seem to think they are above everyone else, when perhaps you know that they are really not even to the same level as most of us. A snake in the grass, just slithering - spewing false bravado. I kind of chuckle because that is a true Narcissist to me.

Recovery is going well for my husband though he has decided to not go to physical therapy. I agree that we do have all the equipment here and if he applies fortitude and consistency he could really do well. I will watch and hope he is committed to such. I have learned that I con not and do not wish to control him. That is something that he has to decide for himself.

WEll I guess I will try and sleep a bit more. Just wanted to reach out across the miles and tell you all that you are phenomenal friends that I am blessed to have.

Keep Dancing Naked

Sunshine Radiant
Posted:Feb 17, 2022 2:45 am
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2022 2:48 pm
This has been quite a journey in much bigger soul searching than I ever thought it would be. In fact when I joined this site this time, I thought it would be just finding a lover, and that was it. Or if not then just to blog. I have always loved to write though in general I do not really plan out what I will ever write about. It just comes as my hands hover over the keyboard.

I found myself though this time on the site, seeing a pattern of pushing men away once they started to get too close. Fear of being hurt again, and realizing that even saying friends with benefits doesn't work for me if I am not actually friends with you which takes time to develop before you ever go hand in hand to the bedroom. I think sex should be a beautiful dance of two people expressing a strong like for each other by engaging in some naked twister and hoping we can both still walk the next day - lol.

I found that I had gotten into a darkness within my soul that I needed to work on. Starting with standing up for myself and not being such a pleaser to everyone around me at the cost of my happiness. That I was never going to be cared about by the right type of people if I did not, especially if I did not learn to love myself. Flaws and all, because we are all so very flawed at teh core of our existence sometimes.

So this meant even in my marriage. My marriage is a very lonely existence to me right now. But I will always stay becauses I do love him, but I am not in love with him at all. I even tried to see if there was a flicker of a chance to recapture that and there is not. At least not right now, who knows about the far future So you have this void, which needs to be filled. I am a very sexual person, something my husband wishes I was not. But this is who I am, and I am not going to be ashamed of having needs.

Being in a open marraige is a good thing for us, or else I would have to divorce. Because I do have the need to be held tight, kissed with the passion of a fiery soul smouldering underneath. To see and here and feel that desire from a man. A man who would look into my eyes and see so much, and understand both of our needs. To not be ashamed to have emotions and even show them to me. Not treat me like I will do for now until someone better is found. To me that is like telling me that I am not good enough for you. I call bullshit on that one.

I am unique, and very intense. I know this, and my mind is always going. I am always driven to create, write, learn, and nurture. I want to make everyone feels good about this precious thing we call life. Life is very hard at times, like taking care of my husband post surgery. But I am managing though I want to crawl into bed and weep because of the pain in my arms and shoulders. But I have faith that next I will tackle getting some help for this.

I even am starting to feel good about myself. I do not allow anyone to mistreat me now. And my heart and soul are both feeling very excited and joyous. Sunshine is such a wonderful breathe of fresh air.

I am stepping into the cornucopia rays of welcoming sunshine and enjoying the beauty around me. Healing day by day from so much and I do thank each one of you, my friends for always being here with me. I do not think I would be healing like I am either without each of you. Even those of you that read but do not comment, I feel you too.

Dance naked in the rain

Filling That Void
Posted:Feb 15, 2022 2:41 am
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2022 2:48 pm

First let me say a belated V-day to all of you that are into that sort of thing. For me while it has it's nice sentiments, I think it is a very overinflated day, greed filled, and really puts everyone, especially men on the spot. To pay the insane prices for roses , dinin, gifts is absurd. You should be showing love to each other everyday, not one particular day.

I am sorry I have been neglectful in writing. lately. I have been so very busy preparing things for my husband's surgery. I had it yesterday and it went very well. He is in some pain, as they have to take bone from his femur and rebuild the socket . It will be a slower recovery, but that is okay. He is on the road to recovering his life.

As for me, I will be talking with my doctor about referrals to a Pulmonologist and and neurologist for my pinched nerve which is causing so much damage in my shoulders and arms. All in good time, I have faith.

I am finding my happy spot again. Taking it slow, as it should be done at least for me. Forming friendships takes time, bit I am really enjoying the feelings, flirting, and connection. That is all I am going to say about this, as it is very private and it will be kept that way.

I hope you all are doing well, finding whatever makes you happy or fills that void that so many of us on here have. Why else would we be here honestly. The world can be a very cold barren one sometimes. Finding a connection, somewhere or someone that makes you feel like you might actually even be wanted, understood, and even beautiful or handsome is a mighty powerful and incredible thing.

Never sell yourself short.

JUmbled Mess That Defines Me
Posted:Feb 12, 2022 3:38 am
Last Updated:May 24, 2024 10:3 pm

Forgive me for this may read very jumbled, because that is what I am at the moment. A big ole jumbly mess it seems.

Feeling very on edge, conflicted even. Monday is my husband's hip replacement surgery, and I am sure he will do fine.But it feels like eternity to get here with his medical needs. My own, still have no real path to getting help. The specialist I need, their practice does not take my insurance, they did last year but this year NO. Imagine my shock. I absolutely need to get some help for my lung problems, edema issues, and the pinched nerves in my neck which now make it almost impossible to do too much.

Daily by the time I get things done as in running a housel, cleaning, cooking, assist my husband of his needs physically, I am pretty spent. I feel overwhelmed, and no one to even turn to get a cup of coffee with or anything. There is no one to comfort me, let me rest my head on their chest, etc.

It is no wonder that I do not feel sexy, I question my sex appeal. I long to feel wanted, cherished, and desired just for being me. I would love to feel that with a friend who would eventually become my lover. Yes there is always that void within my marriage that hasn't been present for so many years. Now even if he tries, you can just tell that he is not into that, which is a huge turn off for me. I do not even wish to go down that path again. And yes he has agreed that I can have a lover, discreetly. Ideally I would have loved to have had that with my spouse but it is far too late.

Oh what a tangled web, but it will sort itself out I hope. I want to feel alive again..

Step by step

Whispering Flutterby's
Posted:Feb 7, 2022 11:10 pm
Last Updated:Feb 8, 2022 11:25 pm
Well It's about time that I got myself dusted off and back to writing. And that is just what I am going to do.

I am feeling pretty seeeeeeeeeexxxy indeed. Doesn't matter how I might look to others, it is how you feel about yourself. I feel like a butterfly fluttering around. Visiting here and there, without sipping any blossoms.

Just like I feel when I have one of my very intense orgasms, my legs close up and I squeeze super tight. To me, it is like a butterfly's wing close. Only torepopen and be ready to receive more time and time again.

I need to be sexual, it is in my nuture. I am tired of worrying so much about everyone else at the cost of my own happiness. I want to be cared for. I want to be talked with, held, embraced. Adored, and even cherished, and oh so very love and wanted.

We are all facing a ticking clock, some of us will be done sooner than others. I do not want to have a life of regrets.

So tell me my sexy friends, what have you done lately to make yourself feel sexy?

Pinch Me
Posted:Feb 5, 2022 4:18 pm
Last Updated:Feb 7, 2022 11:00 pm

I'm sitting here being quite the sight I am sure. In my purple inflatable cervical neck collar that I must wear 3 to 4 times a day at 20 min intervals. It is to gently lift and extend my spine wear the nerves are pinched.

Does it make me feel sexy? Oh just a big ole NO. But I guess sexy is in the eyes of the other party really. If you are their type and they find that you have a sexy attitude, then you are. I find a man's mind and personality the biggest turn on. It is not his body, certainly not his penis size either. Just like us very busty women, some men are given smaller ones, some larger. But I will take a sexy small penis man anyday overy a man with a oversized phlong and a ego to go with that.

I have been so sadden lately as to the number of deaths so many of my friends are grieving over within their families and some close friends. REminds us all that life is entirely way too fleeting and precious.

Shall we all enjoy each other in what capacity we see fit and love gently.

Reset and Finding My Smile
Posted:Feb 2, 2022 4:09 pm
Last Updated:Feb 5, 2022 4:11 pm
Mmmmmm feeling much better. Just need reset myself sometimes. Yes is very hard dealing with both of us being disabled, but differently. Some of mine could be life threatening if I dont keep a eye on things. His is a fix with surgery. But as a wife I feel responsible take care of him, even when I struggle breath etc. And I do tend over do .

I grew up with a narcissist laid on the couch and chain smoked. She would be on the couch asleep when I left for school and still the position when I got home, and this is grade school I could go on and on about all the abuse, but that is not my reason for being here. I just realized why I tend never want say that I can not do something. I never wanted be viewed like her at all.

But I feel much better health wise, so that is a win. Besides my shoulders and arms killing me right now. I do all the lifting and moving right now, as is no one else help. But I am enjoying the sunshine, and that helps with the depression so much. Sometimes I will pull a stool up right by the front door and let the beams of sunlight my face. I love that so much.

Still very horny, so think tonight I will take care of that. My husband did offer go down on me but I do know he is in a great deal of pain. I can not get turned on when I know he is hurting. So I told him after he has surgery and is recovered. Another issue is that he has ED very badly, so this feels like such a one sided thing. I trouble with that, because I am very much a equal partner and always want make the man feel as good or better then he has made me feel. So sigh.

But this too shall pass. Can you believe that on TikTok I now over 7000 followers?! Craziness.

This is a picture of one of my antiques. I incense in this one, love things like this so much.

Big hugs all

My Absence
Posted:Jan 31, 2022 11:31 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2022 3:58 pm

l am sure a few of you have noticed that I have not been posting much. I will admit that I am fighting some depression issues. I always will fight depression, but sometimes like now it is worse.

No one did anything to me, nothing big has happened. Just the hardness of life sometimes get me down. Dealing with my own health issues, and then my husband's as well. Staying here locked in this house get to me. Not feeling better, and the lack of specialists now play a part in it all.

But I will rally above all this and conquer what I can. The rest I will cope with the best way I know how. Today I kind of hit a brick wall with my health challenge and had to slow it way down. You know how it is, you have a huge list of things that you want to do, then you end up doing just what has to be done. So I trimmed all the dogs tails, did some preventive medicines on them, trimmed up both females faces into the classic teddy bear cut, and cleaned the little ones ears again. I did pick up the house and my room as well. But that was about it, I was spent.

But I di think of you guys, my friends. I do get very lonely, but I dont want to whine to anyone. Won't do any good overall, and we all have our own issues to deal with.

So keep your head up, chest out, and be proud...... Of surviving another day.

Posted:Jan 28, 2022 2:40 pm
Last Updated:Jan 29, 2022 12:53 am

Just a quick post for you all.

After much soul searching I have decided to renew my gold membership simply because I enjoy friends I have made on here. I enjoy talking to a certain friend when he cams, I enjoy watching the couples cams. Not so much for the sex acts, but the general tal I have a few couples that I have become plaatonic friends with. It helps me not feel so lonely, and gives me a outlet.

With all that being said, I have decided to not for a lover. I will just enjoy the writing, talking to my friends etc. We all go through different things in our lives. Truth be told health is really causing alot of difficulty in finding a lover, and also just havent found anyone who really even cares to know all of . They always to just jump in bed.

I get it, this is a sex site. That I suess is what most people come on here for. I am different as I would rather have a close firend/s then just a piece.

I will tell you more later, just missed you guys

What Turns You On.
Posted:Jan 24, 2022 10:31 pm
Last Updated:Jan 26, 2022 12:13 am

Sitting here thinking about what turns me on sexually, and I pondering

I do love a vocal partner, as I am vocal. I love hear my lover tell me what they are going do me. Or how I taste, feel, smell. I love tell him how he feels tastes, and is pleasing me. I am a moaner, and a groaner. I want my lover be one too, so we can feed off of each other.

That delicious sexual appetite and energy that too very connected lovers share. Holding hands as they make love and . Kissing and caressing. Holding each other in post orgasmic bliss. Enjoying the remnants of dried cum splatters here and .

I do hope that a lover will be mine, us enjoy each other as we are. Jusst for the beauty of enjoying each other body and soul, that connection.

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